Odd observance

Ahh... the day after Thanksgiving. Yet again, I was the meal preparer. In addition to my immediate family, an aunt and (new) uncle visited. It was wonderful to have the company, and at the end of the night, my place felt like a tomb. I was grateful for the help from my siblings doing prep and clean up with me. I completely skipped the Black Friday commotion. After the laughs, the stories, the reconnecting... I am too tired to shop. I have realized I am very much a homebody. I guess that is why I have been getting a few more invites to go out with friends. I know they love me, and as one said last week, "I wish I could be like you and just not care". She said this after I was behaving like a teenager, bouncing around and being goofy. I haven't been a teen in almost a decade... and today it struck me that me behaving like a fool means I may just be getting back to being my "normal". Not caring what the world thinks, going against the grain, was at one point the way I lived my life. I stood up proudly, defying the norm. That's again why the title I chose for my page... qualities that are being lost. The world has lost a lot of it's passion, it's genuineness... replaced by deceit and dullness. I lost a lot of my passion, my uniqueness.... replaced by dullness and fear. But I am fixing that.