Mind is sputtering thoughts...

Randomness abounds in my exhausted head. I thought I would quickly post to let you know I intend to post more regularly. With that, enjoy an un-edited entry!
Tidbits I need to remember: They say the drunk mind tells the truth... again, I never follow the norm. Mine lies, exaggerates, delves into the darker recesses of itself when not focused appropriately. I can only apologize, and mean for no one to take offense/worry at what spew from my vocal chords. I am not diverting responsibilty (call me on whatever idiotic thing I do); just know that drunk me is NOT me.
Do not read items that makes my imagination run wild, late at night. It's worse than dirty videos. I have a freaking test to study for! I don't want to be shown as a dumbass! As a side note, I need to write more. So I will find a notebook and start filling it with the "fun" thoughts, rather than type and delete. I need to return a certain red book-lest I tempt myself again.
Came back to a green door and one of the maintenance guys lounging outside my (unlocked) apartment.  Management wants to have the tenants start up a Neighborhood Watch, I want a new neighborhood.
I am hitting obstacle after obstacle in my quest for self-improvement. The local school called, tuition is a bit pricey and my chosen area does not do stipends. Looked for a second job, nothing good popped up. Will try again. Pulled a muscle over-doing it exercising. Bought a rice krispy treat for lunch. Tried to find my cousin via other family members' network sites-no luck.
Surrender has become a mini-motto of late. I will have to more quietly make my plans for world domination, while diverting much attention away from frivolous pursuits. I learned long ago to stop chasing what is not there. Other missions are to be completed. This applies to all my external inclinations. Hardest one to let go of: house versus school (will be leaning toward school-yes it costs THAT much); easiest: shutting and locking the part of me I have been working hard to smash down. I fear I may be "bitchy" more, or at least cynical. New mindsets are being set in place for the general population. You have nothing to fear.
My work schedule is screwy for the rest of this month and next, by design. July might be "normal", with August and beyond requiring random days off (hence why I am trying to get in contact with a cousin- I want to plan a visit).
Other oddities abound, but fatigue is setting in.