Freaking Out

I should be sleeping.. Can't sleep... Brain racing....
So much new stuff to catch people on (as last post was Sept '14)
Short versions:

1. New Job. Learn new things every day, not the only Fruit Loop in a bowl of Cheerios, people get my movie/music/show references, contests of the best nerd T-shirt, the general environment is awesome... Sorry, am I making you jealous? Terrific!
2. Purple + blue hair.  I rock my new look. I just need to carve time to polish said look and put makeup on. 
3. In process of walking away from a house contract. Seller may come after me.
4. Researching fonts for my brother and sister in law's ceremony. My gift to them is cake + cupcakes. I want to do an amazing job.
5. Already having mini-anxiety attacks about the ceremony... and number of people. 
6. Back of mind thing: online dating. Going to try to get Red and Baby, a few bottles of wine, and a profile going.  No luck with setups, bars, casual conversation in store/movie/restaurant/shopping, etc. I suck at being social, but would like to be in a relationship with someone. Someone that wants to give me their time and attention, share good and bad, build a strong foundation... oh, and all the more... sensual items. Plus, I do still want to be a wife and mom. Might as well eff up the next generation and secure the crazy genes I have continue on. The species needs more geeks with extra blood vessels. 
7. Looking for other concerts/movies/activities to enjoy. I have 5 events in near-ish future. I want to have more experiences. I should try to call Baby and Red about #6. Not sure if anyone else wants to be randomly texted/called as a "What's up?"
8. Along the lines of #7, having trouble talking to some people. Mostly my fault. Really majority is my fault. I miss the last guy I was dating. I know romantically we were not heading to the next stage, but I miss his passion... even if it was for sports (meh).  Having real trouble converting to the 'friend zone'. He seems aloof, and I ended it... so yeah... that was a first. Um, I'm the bad person... I expect to be rejected.  We don't really have a geographical closeness, to randomly bump into each other. He was a good guy... he was showing he was not the right guy. Others in the category of trouble talking to, and miss: extended family, coworkers, estranged friends. I'm a weirdo. Just send a message out, dammit. If no response... oh well.

So much going on... trying to learn to do simple code, read, find time to write stories, try to connect with people... the list expands.  I want to do ALL THE THINGS! But I'm too old for this shit.

And I need sleep... definitely need sleep... I have baking to do!