In this corner, we have the lovable :) (me). And in this corner is the tag team of Mom and Dad.
Me: Dad, whatever it is that you want to say, just say it. Get it out of your system, out in the open and then we can work on getting over it. Tell me 'I told you so', call me whatever you've done so in private. Just quit hiding it and sniping at me. You've been holding back. If you're scared I can't take it, remind yourself that I am your daughter, and one of the few people who will stand toe to toe.
Dad: and foolish enough not to flinch. Daughter, I knew you had made a greivous mistake with that boy. I tried to stop you, and still stop you from focusing on foolish follies.
Me: Love is not a foolish folly.
Dad: You are young
Me: and you were on child number three at my age. If you are claiming age, then you have to call yourself a fool.
Dad: I won't do that. Your mother is the best thing to happen to me.
Me: and everyone told you that you were fools to get married and have children. Every member of your families... why did you think telling me "No" was going to be any different?
Dad: But yet, I was right. I will not let you make the same mistake again.
Mom: what about that one...
Me: stop right there. Just stop, both of you. I will not apologize for caring about someone. Yes, I made a mistake in whom to trust. I'll likely do it again. No one is perfect. I have mom begging for grand-babies, and dad secretly wishing I'd either go into a convent or move back and take care of everything again, thus leaving me no time to be ME.
Dad: what do you think it would be like if you had a boyfriend or husband and kids?
Me: They'd be MY boyfriend, MY husband, MY kids... not one thrust on me because you were too busy. I want my life to revolve around more than just me and you guys.
Dad: stop wishing for something that's not going to happen.
Mom: You have to take what your father says with a grain of salt.
Me: if I do that, I'm going to have hypertension
Mom: you are not incomplete without a partner
Me: I know that... but the things I want will require more than just me.
So what am I doing to work toward this wish? Well... I'm sorta flirting with a cute firefighter in my class, but being careful to not be aggressive. I'm tying the dudes up at work when they try to tell me I can't lift a tote. Staying busy. Basically... doing nothing, and trying to remember that I'm happier, healthier, hotter, and just better than I was when I was in a long term relationship. So, I'm a better version of who I used to be. Win for the next guy that floats my boat, or just a feel good thing while I wander through singledom.
Now, to suddenly go deaf as I enter my parents' house.
Sigh....
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