Patience is the companion of wisdom

Sorry, no key for you just yet.  

I jest about having no patience. My friends look at me, mouths agape, every time I utter the phrase. They bring up examples from my past, and some more recent going-ons. I smile, and make a playful gesture of wanting something right now, like swiping a fry or rushing to make a selection. I admit to running full speed ahead in many things.

But class, and lessons in life, have slowly taught me to be a little more cautious. The problem is that it tends to lead to me being silent and seen as cold as I take the time to gather information. There are times to act now, questions later... other times... not so much. 

But I do feel like a strait-jacketed two year old that ate all their Halloween candy in one sitting. I partially blame the person that asked to extend a hug long enough to let me get a clear pulse rate.

(Speaking of which... no kids stopped by... I have to unload my candy stash. Any takers?)

I am halfway through my EMT class-failure is not an option. I look forward to maybe granting my sisters' and father's wish of all of us working together (at least for a while).

I should work on a few easier items on my list. The sense of accomplishment is nice, and reminds me life is more than 'work, school, sleep, repeat'. Knowing my 1001 days is winding down is adding to the excitement.

I had a great "true 24 hours off" to end my month. With my squished schedule, and barely seeing my apartment in daylight hours, it was amazing to shove all the daily stressors out and have the mindset to just enjoy the moments. Sharing it with someone that gives me a sense of calm chaos was icing on the cake.

I didn't break down into a bubbling mass of goo last Friday (Febtober's birthday). In a weird way, I have 'raised a kid'. No insult to the other sibs, but he's the only one that I was mature enough to handle his care, crib to college. Celebrating it a little late was nice, and his expression was priceless. It was, and I quote, "Imagine you're high on epinephrine, speed, ecstacy, heroin and coke... All at the same time".

I'm still making lists and plans for life... but focusing on things I can develop. I want to have one of my sisters do a henna version or two of the tattoo I have imagined, go visit my preggo cousin before she gets too big, work on calling/texting/not being absent for weeks on end to my buds, etc. Oh, and of course, dragging all my wonderful friends along on these paths I walk. Make you a deal; you help hold the flashlight and bring some extra batteries, I'll pack a few snacks and protection from the elements. We'll sing, laugh, trot through the mud and make the rest of the world jealous.